Boys, Men

"This I Promise You"

When the visions around you,
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you,
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength,
I'll give you hope,
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call,
Was standing here all along..

And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever,
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never...
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart (give you my heart)
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow,
Forever has now begun...

Just close your eyes (close your eyes)
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you..
This I promise you..

Over and over I fall (over and over I fall)
When I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all...

And I will take (I will take you in my arms)
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong (right where you belong)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you baby

Just close your eyes
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Every word I say is true
This I promise you

Every word I say is true
This I promise you

N'Sync was never my favorite band because obviously the Backstreet Boys were the best. But recently I've been listening to this song over and over again. Justin Timberlake's voice is quite similar to Nick Carter's but I like JC Chasez's voice in the second part of the song. I think JC's voice built the success for this song. Then I watched the video on Youtube. I felt so triggered because it was filmed right in my neighborhood back in the City of Gold. I know every scene, every spot, every building, and even the table the boys were sitting at so well. This is a great song.

I'm now wondering why the Backstreet Boys are the only boy band that's able to hold it together for the longest time. They went through a lot of difficulties as well, such as drugs, but they all managed to mature, settle down, have a family, and get back on their career again. Maybe it's because the Backstreet Boys were formed by chance; they met in Disneyland and never thought they'd write a new chapter in the pop music history. All other boy bands were just copies of the Backstreet Boys, or weren't able to hang in there longer because they're emotionally screwed up. Some of the Backstreet Boys were screwed up at one point, but there was Brian Littrell who's a devoted Christian and his cousin Kevin Richardson and Howie Dorough who are much older than the other boys. I feel these three guys were able to pull the younger ones back together. AJ and Nick are younger than the others and have been outrageous at one point. But they're both back on track and getting married now.

Another interesting thing about the BSB is that they all have boys except AJ. Recently I've come up with a theory that an emotionally unavailable man, or an effeminate man, combined with a masculine woman, are more likely to have daughters. A real man with a feminine, soft woman are likely to have boys. This explains why every woman in my family always gives birth to a girl as their first child. Or why every boy in Blue, the British boy band, gives births to girls, and without marriages, because they're emotionally immature and unavailable.

As I am beginning to see through this mysterious universe and what human beings are made of, I'm changing my life style and valuing how I feel again. Tomorrow I'm going to quit my tutoring job. Although it makes up 30% of my salary, I'm done with their bullshit. I will be able to have 4 days off every week and I'm going to take really good care of myself.