Given up again

Having given up on romance, I am also giving up on my career pursuit. After all the rejections, I believe that the mistake I made during my last job was an unforgivable and irremovable scar that ruins my resume forever. I am stuck in this place forever. I will have to do what I don't really like to do forever.

Now I've even lost the point of living. People are always telling me to forgive myself and to allow myself to be happy, but you know what, I can't be happy unless I am successful in everything I do. Now, since I have failed everything, there is no way I am going to forgive myself. Life is a painful journey to death. What is the point, really?