Scared.

Right now I'm scared of many things. I'm scared that if I rent somewhere cheap the security will be really bad. I'm scared that I won't be able to pay off my debt. I'm scared that I won't be strong enough to move my stuff. I'm scared of my father. I'm scared that my dog will be hurt. I'm scared that I am no longer myself but someone living under the busy superficial pretense. Why am I so weak? If Ivan were still here I didn't need to be scared of anything at all. Kendra Johanson, please get used to all your insecurities and lonliness and get rid of your desire to depend on someone!!