For the first time...

I feel so happy since my dog's death.

I went to a bar/club by a swimming pool at a five-star hotel with Ken tonight. Ken just returned to the City of Rain because he just quit his job in the City of Gold.

There were tears because we talked about my dog again and there were lots of laughters. We talked about work, family, dating, etc. Somehow he has that magic to make me keep smiling. Is it because he's emotionally unavailable and I'm just still attracted to men like that? There were moments when we were just silent and looked into each others' eyes with nothing but a smile. I felt safe, I felt happy, I feel settled in.