To feel needed.

It's kind of surprising to know that I haven't written anything here for more than one month. I guess I have been really busy.

Tonight I finally have a little break from work and I just watched How I Met Your Mother this week so I thought I should put something here. Obviously Robyn is a tough woman, but does that really mean she doesn't need a man?

This episode just reminded me of all the men I been with; they are just as weak and self-conscious as Ted. They need to feel needed, yet they are so stupid that they just didn't know I needed them. Why wouldn't they just work harder to become someone whom I can depend on? I mean, aren't all human beings supposed to work harder for the better? For instance, I've always thought that I was not good enough for Richard, so I have been trying so hard to be as good as him, although he is still by nature much smarter than me. At least I am trying. But why can't men do the same? When they realize that you're much better than they, they just dump you.

On the other hand, I think the way I am right now is quite nice. All I think about and care about is my career and work; this also makes me realize that none of these men around me (although they're just as smart, or even smarter, as me and good looking and motivated) is right for me. Some of them are already taken, but this only means they're still weak on the inside because they're too scared to be alone, while some of them are just not good enough for me. JJ is no exception.

The City of Power is an amazing place. I wonder if I can run into someone like Richard.