Never like that.

JJ's girlfriend is flying all the way from the City of Rain to the City of Power to visit him. Actually I think I am over JJ already, but somehow this still upsets me a bit. I do feel the pain; I do not understand why he wouldn't choose me over her. In fact, nobody would choose me over someone else; everybody chooses someone else over me.

God please make me cry. I haven't dropped a single tear since moving to the City of Power. I want to cry so much but the tears just wouldn't come out.