Pete Walker CPTSD

About loving feelings

It comes and goes, doesn’t it?

Sometimes related to people and how theytreat us, and sometimes not.

Sometimes related to the moon, to personal finances, to the questions of life, to nothingness, to everything, to the seasons, the time, to the food we ate, to….

It would appear as if the art of loving is not whether you love or not (we all do in our present way) but whether you trust that when love leaves,

it has a reason and it will return again.

Always. 

We humans are instruments for love by design. 

(So is the whole universe!)

When love blows across us, naturally we sing a love song

And when there is no love wind to blow, though it leaves us strange and willow-like, love has gone to an empty field where it fills its wind sails again

so that it might return and blow across our all too hungering instruments one more time. 

What shall we do while we wait? 

We shall weep of course — something as lovely as love leaves a gaping hole when gone. 

We shall remember love in our hearts and wait with ourselves as we wonder in question and doubt until we remember, “Love always returns.” 

~Carol Ruth (The Hide and Seek Game of Love)

Toolbox 1: Suggested Intentions for Recovery

1. I want to develop a more constantly loving and accepting relationship with myself. I want to increase the capacity for self-acceptance.

2. I want to learn to become the best possible friend of myself. 

3. I want to attract into my life relationships that are based on love, respect, fairness, and mutual support.

4. I want to uncover a full, uninhibited self-expression.

5. I want to attain the best possible physical health.

6. I want to cultivate a balance of vitality and peace.

7. I want to attract to myself love friends and community. 

8. I want increasing freedom from toxic shame.

9. I want increasing freedom from unnecessary fear.

10. I want rewarding and fulfilling work.

11. I want a fair amount of peace of mind, spirit, soul and body.

12. I want to increase my capacity to play and have fun.

13. I want to make plenty of room for beauty and nature in my life.

14. I want sufficient physical and monetary resources.

15. I want a fair amount of help, self, human or divine to get what I need.

16. I want the Universe’s love, grace and blessing.

17. I want a balance of work, rest, and play.

18. I want a balance of stability and change.

19. I want a balance of loving interaction and healthy self-sufficiency.

20. I want full emotional expression with a balance of laughter and tears.

21. I want a sense of meaningfulness and fulfillment.

22. I want to find an effective and non-abusive way to deal with anger.

23. I want all these for each and every other being.